dear my beloved bubu

once upon a time , i met a great new boyfriend , who knew me the right way . it was funny how he understood me , all i had to say . he listened to my problem , he listened my dreams , we talked about hope and life . he'd been there too it seemed . i never once felt judged by him . he knew just how i feel . he seemed to just accept me , and all the problem i had dealt . he didn't interrupt me , nor needed him to have his say . he just listened patiently and didn't go away . there is something that i wanted him to understand , that is 

HOW MUCH THAT HE REALLY MEANT TO ME ..

 

KHAIRIL ANWAR BIN ERVAN , I LOVE YOU SO DAMN MUCH (!)

sekolah menengah kebangsaan seksyen 4 kota damansara

SEKOLAH MENENGAH KEBANGSAAN SEKSYEN 4 KOTA DAMANSARA , ( 2006-2010 )

kat sekolah ny aku penah kene marah ngn cikgu , tak siap kerja sekolah , kne rotan :D
macam tak cye jee , dah nak habis sekolah . mesti rindu gila . haih . aku sayang gila kat kau sekolah . haha . to budak budak kadet polis , haha , akak doakan korang menang lagii ;)budak budak 1 zamrud (2006) , 2 cerdas (2007) , 3 dinamik (2008) , 4 jujur (2009) , 5 jujur (2010) , sayang korang semua . haha . yang masuk teknik , semoga korang berjaya :)

menanti bayangan yang tak pasti

syahdunya jiwaku
bila terkenagkan kembali
perasaanku ditolak tepi
cintaku dibiar sepi
mengapa aku harus begini
mengharap bayangan yang tak pasti
menanti kasih yang suci
akhirnya , tewas !
kecundang jiwa di saat bahagia mengunjung hati
ditipu ! dicaci !
rupanya beginilah hidup ini
penuh onak dan duri
hanya kerana kasih terhadap seorang lelaki
hatiku terluka kini
bagaimana untuk aku merawat luka itu
bagaimana untukku mengambil kembali cintaku
sedangkan semakin ku kejar
semakin ia lari .. menghilang ..
mungkin tidak akan kembali
biarlah ia pergi
semoga aku akan menemuinya kembali
pabila ia hadir dengan sendiri
bersama perasaan suci ..